Scud
5.2.26
The Tin, by Pravasan Pillay
The box also has barcodes on three sides, nutrition listings, and a best before date of 31.12.2028 – listed below the date is the following text: “L043T Morocco 1156”. The box is predominantly blue in colour and, on the front, has a picture of sardine fillets placed on a white plate, and garnished with lemon slices as well as leaves of some sort – which is presented as a serving suggestion.
I start to remove the cardboard around the tin. The box flaps are glued shut and require using a fingernail to pick an edge loose and to then peel open. I try to not tear the glued flap, but even so, some tearing happens. The tin, which measures 10.5cmx6.3cmx2.8cm, fits snugly in the box, but also slides out without much effort. It’s silverish in colour, with a slight bronze tinge, and a dull shine.
The longer sides of the tin are lined with about ten protruding ridges each, while the shorter sides are lined with three ridges each. The bottom has two shallow oblong depressions, one nesting inside the other. (The number 32 is faintly stamped in the innermost oblong.) There is also a small dent on the underside, about two centimeters in length.
The tin’s lid is imprinted with the same info found on the side of the box – “31.12.2028” and “L043T Morocco 1156.” – but they are askew. This is the only text on the tin. The lid also has nested oblong depressions, though these are larger in dimension. On one end of the lid is the ring tab with which to open the tin. The ring tab looks much like those on soda cans but broader. It’s pear-shaped with a large hole at the bottom through which one can grasp the tab.
The bottom of the tab – the part to be lifted – rests on two bumps, which results in the tab being raised slightly above the surface of the lid. Between these bumps, and underneath the tab, is small indentation. The combined effect of the bumps and the indentation allows the tab to be easily held and lifted from the surface – without using anything, such as a butter knife for example, to pry it up.
Using one hand to hold down the tin, I grasp and lift the tab more than 90 degrees with my other hand, which causes the tab to push down into the lid, and for the lid to cave in somewhat, revealing a sliver of oil as the seal is broken. I insert a finger into the tab, and using my thumb as leverage, I pull it slowly towards me, allowing the thin lid to be incrementally peeled away from the tin. The lid, which is oily underneath, and which now has a curved shape, requires a bit of jiggling to completely detach.
1.2.26
Three Poems by Alex Rainey Ward
Muezzins
Trying to tame my wildness
my hair’s askew
my hair’s on fire
my wildness is up to no good.
In the Zoo Shop there are
10,000 parakeets,
each one of them happy
as fuck.
I knocked on Death’s door and
Death ran away,
I thumped on Death’s door like
thumping a melon to see if
it was ripe yet.
My wildness is on fire
my mind is the muezzins’.
Waystations
I feel so candid in my naked body
sitting here on the couch with a
towel under my ass
with the man tits I fought so
hard against
just like my mother trying to
rid herself of her little
potbelly,
using bogus products she bought
for $9.99.
Finally she gave up,
she’d rest her hands on her
little potbelly and eat buttered
Pop-Tarts, slumped down
on the couch.
A couch, a TV, waystations.
Demurely, I’ve drawn the
curtains
but the naked light bulb’s
blazing
I want to throw open the curtains
and appall the night.
It’s 2 am, the city’s timid.
Railyard
The night’s a railroad track, the moon’s a train, and all the rest is ash.
The dark matter of the universe is just ash and cinders,
something enormous was burnt, maybe the body of God,
sacrificing himself in the act of creation.
And everything’s still unfinished, in disarray,
the Kuiper belt, for example, which is maybe hiding the
real solar system with a better Earth in it,
this one’s only a rough draft.
The night’s slivers, spars, spurs of a railroad,
the rails look like silver hissing serpents’ tongues.
Ore cars parked on a siding, a cashiered old
passenger car, an old dining car still coupled,
going fusty and musty, like a man and wife rotting in the grave together.
Maybe from the chaos of the railyard a train will
gather into one long thing and start
rolling through the night, thrumming rhythmically,
rocking gently side to side, carrying everybody home.