18.2.26

One Poem by Adam Fieled

Star Child

 

So, there we sat in Kim’s car, for the hour’s

ride back from New Hope to Center City; drowsy,

all three of us, on a bunch of laced weed, thinking

whatever we were thinking. Kim kept putting

the pedal to the metal at times slightly off. We all

could’ve been as good as dead, if we didn’t have it,

but we did. What we had was a shared pact, into

the air, the spheres, the universe, that whatever befell

us at that time, that place, we would have to survive,

because we just would. And we did. Which didn’t

change the state of affairs, stagnant for both of us

with Kim, not brimful of anything, that whatever

soporific fantasies I might’ve had, our taking her out

to canoe on the Delaware did not result in any

 

consummation, & with her forgetting her purse on

one of the islands, where we got even more trashed.

We forgot about this, the ride home, Kim’s reflexes, how

the rest of our lives depended on something not proven,

trustworthy. The two buddies had brains circling

similarly: nothing to worry about, go with it, understand

your invincibility, it’s there if you believe, it just is. Where

shields like that come from, I don’t know, but I will

say— exclusivity is the rule. You only depend on it

if you know it’s there. Off the two of them went, into

the late afternoon sun, after dropping me off in Logan

Square. Somewhere, a frequency in the sky consolidated

itself. Gaetan didn’t look like a star-child then, but he was.

His magnanimity, more than a lion’s, granted him nine lives. 


Adam Fieled

16.2.26

Prose by Dominik Slusarczyk

Slusarczyk on Anne Hathaway 44: An Analysis of ‘I Dreamed a Dream’ from ‘Les Misérables’

 

            Sometimes actresses do not get to decide what lines they say. If they have to say certain things they cannot communicate with us with the words they say so they have to communicate with how they say the words they say.

            This film is about poverty. The song is about dreams. The performance is about insanity, a type of dream.

            Firstly poverty and dreams are related because poor people dream a lot. They dream about being rich. They dream about living in mansions and driving supercars. Ruch people do not dream of living in mansions because they live in mansions. They do not dream about driving supercars because they drive a supercar every day. Poor people dream more because they have less and the less you have the more you can dream of having.

            The actress walks us through a psychotic break over the course of this song. First she is so quiet she is whispering and then she starts singing beautifully when she gets to the line ‘I dreamed a dream’. That means the singing beautifully is dreaming so the quiet beforehand was not dreaming. She is sane at the start of the song and then she becomes insane.

            After that there is a word ‘shame’ which increases in volume dramatically so that is talking about the intensity of the dreams, the insanity, increasing. After that is a line that is breathless so she falls in love with the insanity which is bound to happen if the delusions are delusions of grandeur. To start with their insanity is fun but it soon changes.

            Then there is a line about her childhood being taken from her and she says the line incredibly angrily so the insanity is ruining her life and that makes her angry. She fell in love with the psychosis so she spent ages doing it so she stopped living because she spent all her time in her head. After that there is a particularly loud line with an especially loud word ‘cannot’. So if it is loud she is trying really hard so she is trying to get rid of the insanity but the word is cannot so she tries really hard to get rid of the insanity but she can’t do it.

            Finally there is a line where she is crying so she can’t force the insanity out of her head so she starts crying because she has to accept that she is crazy now.

            Over the course of this song there are a lot of lines that are whispered. The start of the song is very quiet and there is a lot whispered there but there are lines all throughout the song that are whispered. So the actress has these brief periods of sanity in the middle of the insanity. She has these brief periods where she is lucid and she tries to use those periods to force the insanity out of her mind but she can’t do it. But at the end of the song she returns to speaking quietly so she does end up sane even though she couldn’t choose to be sane. So she ends up sane but not because of anything she did she just naturally goes back to being sane.

            So the points of these quite bits is that we do not have any control over whether we are sane or insane. Some people are sane and some people are insane and there’s nothing we can do about that. Some people get lucky and some people get unlucky. Just like some people are born to billionaires and some people are born in the gutter.

 

 

Slusarczyk on Scorsese 56: An Analysis of ‘Gangs of New York’

 

            This film is about war. The war is a war between two rival gangs in New York. But they are only in a very small part of New York. They are fighting over this one square, this one intersection. They are fighting over a very small area of land.

            But they are fighting for the right to live in the city. The Natives, the bad gang. want to exterminate all the immigrants. The Dead Rabbits, the good guys, are Irish immigrants. They just want to be able to live in New York. They want to call New York home.

            The sides disagree so they have to fight. It is a war because it is endless like all wars are. It doesn’t matter what you are fighting over once you start fighting over it you will be fighting over it forever. Russia invaded Ukraine years ago. They still haven’t conquered a significant part of Ukraine. Ukraine still hasn’t kicked them out of the country. They will still be fighting years from now.

            Israel has been fighting Palestine for decades. That war has been going on for years and years. Every year Israel conquers more of Palestine but still Israel has not conquered Palestine. And the war will not end when they conquer Palestine. When they conquer Palestine the Palestinians living inside Israel will fight from the inside.

            They have started fighting so now they will be fighting for the rest of time. The fighting will only end when the land they are fighting over doesn’t exist anymore and land doesn’t just stop existing so they will be fighting for the rest of time.

            Or they will fight until the other side is extinct. They will fight until they kill every single person on the other side. The only way Palestine can win the war is if they kill all the Jews. The problem is there are Jews all over the world. They cannot possibly exterminate all the Jews so they can’t ever win the war. The war will go on forever because the land will exist forever.

            So the battle between the gangs in the film is a war because it will never end. It will never end because it is a battle over land. The native gang, The Natives, think they own the land because they were born there. The Dead Rabbits, the immigrants, just want to be allowed to live somewhere. They are running away from famine. They came to America because the alternative was death.

            They must have known how bad it was. Irish people must have sent back word. They would have told everyone exactly how racist America is. They would have told everyone about the violence and the crime. And my god there is a lot of crime. It seems everyone in the city is committing some kind of crime. They steal because they need money to get food. They steal because if they don’t steal they will starve.

            The Irish couldn’t stay in Ireland and steal to live because nobody in Ireland had any money. They had to come to America because you can make more money stealing in America because Americans have more money. They moved to America because they wanted more money.

            Isn’t that why a lot of people move? Everyone is always moving to richer countries. A lot of people move to America because America is the richest country in the world. They move there because they will make more money there than they would make anywhere else.

            But every penny they make is a penny an American doesn’t make.

            That is The Butcher’s argument. He says that every penny the Irish get is a penny an American could have got instead. The Irish person stole a ring off a woman. If he hadn’t stolen that ring an American could have come along later and stolen it for himself. So every penny the immigrants make is a penny the Americans don’t make.

            So they fight. They fight over land. They fight over money. They fight over the land because if you own the land you will make money. If you live in America you will make more money than you would if you lived anywhere else so everyone fights over the chance to live in America.

            There is a man. He has a football. He plays football in his back garden every day. But he has no friends. He does not have one friend in the whole world. So he has to play football on his own.

            He has a little goal. It is made out of plastic but the net is made out of the right material he thinks. He puts the goal in the back corner of his garden and he kicks the football at the goal. He usually scores because there is nobody in goal trying to stop the football. So he usually wins but he usually wins because he is playing himself.

            But he does not always win. Sometimes he kicks the football and he misses the goal entirely.

            He wishes he had a friend. If he has a friend they could go in goal. He would even take a turn in goal sometimes. He would dive and save the ball and he would have a lot of fun because he has never tried being in goal before. You cannot go in goal when you are playing on your own.

            Every night he goes to sleep and dreams of dancing.

 

11.2.26

Four Poems by Mark Young

Cyborg sidewalks

 

Doors open at 7:30, show starts at 8pm.

It's always polite to be there earlier.

 

Travel is a mirror for who we are.

How would you define your travel style?

 

Should you be polite to artificial intelligence?

Straight answers that are slightly polite are always good.

 

Conversation-starting pieces of clothing will easily draw attention.

Social pleasantries in questions & answers should be strongly discouraged.

 

There are three-month-old dumplings on the ceiling fan.

That's a style, not a confession.

 

 

Threshold

 

Liminal space beckons. Is filled

with fresh-cooked bagels that I

know can't be real because they

smell too good. I am standing at

the top of a stairway that leads

down to the local rail station. All

I can see are steps & a sign on

the wall that says This way to the

 

Led Zeppelin concert & looks out of

date. The smell of bagels comes up

from the bottom of the stairs: there

are no signs of trains or travelers;

posts an emptiness that is both im-

minent & has fragrant disconcerts.

 

 

A line from Leopold von Sacher-Masoch

 

Is there a border we will never cross,

or are there only plateaux that

follow on from one another, each at

a different height? Some things I

 

can never know for sure; but I remind

myself that every day is a new begin-

ning, that from now on I no longer exist

as I am, or was, or ever will be again.

 

 

A rarely explored tonal pathway

 

He tore pages out of An

Open Doorway to the Almighty

& ate them. They repeated on

him, percussive, but still melo-

dic, much like a glockenspiel.